My blog of things on my mind. 
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Name - Keller
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  Flower Boy Returns!  3/22/2026
Current mood: Free Spirited
Current tunes: Super Paper Mario OST
Sorry for all the random venting and stuff. I think I have it figured out now. Something about a white rope and a red string. I am like such a vinin right now. The music from that forgotten wii game is just too good. Sooooo I finally started watching jjk and its perty good I gotta say. Its way different than I thought it was gonna be actually. I thought it was gonna just be a buch of kids pumme,ling the one bad guy but its actually deeper than that. Wich I like. I mean yall know me. So yeah, I think I would recomend sofar.

  I don't get it  3/12/2026
Current mood: Existential
Current tunes: The Ultimate Show (Super Paper Mario) & King Bowser's Castle 2 (Yoshi's Wooly World) on repeat.
I don't get it. I don't understand myself.
Why can't I even control my own person, my own mind. I can't keep it in line and I don't get why.
I feel so small, so powerless... uhg. Am, I making myslef upset because I can't fathom the idea that mabye... just mabye... I'm just normal. I'm ok. I'm no different than anyone else my age.
People make mistakes... but will I ever learn? I don't know. Why am I my own biggest enemy lol. It don make sense! Whatever.

  Losening... I guess  3/11/2026
Current mood: Lightly Humored
Current tunes: Super Mario Sunshine Soundtrack
Ok peeps, imma be honest here. I need to lighten up a bit. Not that I'm like not fun to be arround or whatever its just... my reservations are bogging me down a bit. I guess I don't know when its universally apropriate to say stuff ya know. Of course there are any tried and true rules for that sot of thing but whatevs. I guess I'm so focused on the way that other people see me, cause I've built up a very strange reputation of being cultually aloof. I don't want to lose the innocent picture people have of me cause i'm scared imma be shunned or sumtin. Which I confess is really dumb. I just gotta stop carring what random people think.
Anyways, yeah i mainly just need to i dunno... stop pretending, It feels like i'm lying, I'm never as good as people think. What am I even saying at this point...
Maybye I'm being dumb and I'm already doing just fine, but I guess the underlined thing im trying to say is:
IDK HOW TO SOCIALIZE
Like I never know what things are cool to say and what things arent. Somtimes i talk too much (mainly venting), and other times I don't say enough. It's just allways the wrong thing at the wrong time, I can't figure it out. Hell, I don't even know what's ok to say to myself!
But I digress... A freind of mine says I have autism and I honestly am starting to belive him. I mean he's never been wrong about anything before.. I'm not kidding, I mean he even knew I was into before I did, crazy.
I should probably trust his judgment at this point lol. So mabye that expalians the whole shebang.. BUT i'm still gonna try my best to ligten up... full circle moment. How' bout some improv poetry?

Simply
It is funny
This play that we all commonly call life

Lively
Somtimes scummy
There's nothing we can do about the strife

Try me
Must deny the
Old dandilion wish plays me a fife

Oh yeah I finally made a sucsessful wish on a dandelion, so it's gonna come TRUE!!! (possibly) I'm not telling you what for... tee hee!

  Positive thinking.  3/10/2026
Current mood: Somewhat Annoyed
Current tunes: "Rabid Child" by They Might Be Giants
I'm trying not to complian as much as I used to right, expecially about my... well yall know who. But man right now... nope. I'm not gonna. I'm gonna "Accentuate the positive, Eliminate the negative" ya know. I got this let me say some positive about today.
My friends were all doing well so that ws reall nice. Everybody smiled, and we had an... INTERESTING conversation. It was fun tho, and we all need that to keep livelyhood up.

(um.. nevermind person reading this... hah!)


But yeah that was nice. I got to sit on some trees. So that was nice too. Unfortunatly it was Marie's birthday... POSITIVE! Um... uh... I dont have much work, and I started reading "Of Mice and Men" for my lit class, and its reall good sofar. Why do I keep spelling real with two l's lol. I spel gud!
As you can see I've really gottrn into this band They MIght Be Giants. They're really cool, kinda like alternative rock sorta. But honestly they constantly defy genre. I want to say before this section that I respect all music, and its cool for people to listen to whatever. However, I do miss the lyrics of yore. Ya know I feel like songs used to be more... Interesting. And of course there are some good new'uns but ya know. I just wish they would play stuff at the school dances that isnt just, well there's not an apt term. I mean I respect the songs that people are into, but for me, media, expecially music is like a spiritual experience. I'd usually rather have a reprive from sexual ideas through music instead of that stuff being.. acentuated. (I want to clarify i'm talking about the more explicit rather than the more implicit.) You all can listen to whatever you want, but most of that stuff just aint my vibe. I wanna be dance meditating.
Wow I started yapping, see ya!

  Longing for things.  3/9/2026
Current mood: Demure
Hi, ive been doing a lot of thinking about a lot of stuff, mostly how things are... different than I thought, and by that I mean that I'm different than I thought. But I digress. Um, I wrote a poem I guess.

Such is recollection Shall it sting and yet shine
Like a sword in the side
Like a temperate day in summer
They don’t make em’ like they used to.

How does time recedeth
Here as the sunset flies
Nostalgia graces my lips
Not sweet, some chewed gum
Rubbery, I let it sit, and I savor it.

Chocolate mint, fresh
Chosen boldly, hand picked
Dirt Crunched between teeth
Distinguished meal of honor
Gone was the last leaf, down the throat.

Saltwater, I’m buoyant
Semblance of mind and soul
Does it sting to recall a
Din of future times
Ocean waves remind me of salty tears.

Mustn’t I remember
Mustn’t I forget
This little piggy went to market.

But I’m not over
But I’m not done
Went WaWaWaWa
All the way home.